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Thanks for stoping by! That's me, and my super cute and spunky 1 year old, Nora. When we're not laying on the floor taking selfies, we also like to bake, take lots of pretty photos, and practice yoga. Aside from posting way too many pictures of Nora on instagram, I also take pretty wedding picures and make pretty baby items. So browse around, and keep up with all the latest.
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Jun
19
2014

So this post is going to be long. And personal, definitely deeply personal. And honest. There will be no sugar coating things. I wont leave out details just because they don’t fit the perfect picture of the perfect life that I might want you to believe we all live in (because come on, who doesn’t want everyone to believe we all have it figured out, we all have it all under control). It’s real.

If you browse through my Instagram feed, or my Facebook photos (same thing), you’ll see a beautiful little baby girl who smiles and laughs, and is learning how to crawl. Every now and again you’ll see a picture with me in it, or maybe Greg. But it’s mostly Nora. And she’s mostly smiling. And this is a pretty accurate portrayal of my life with Nora. She’s a smiley, giggly little almost 8 month old. She was a pretty easy newborn. She wasn’t colicky, she didn’t have that “witching hour” of fussiness every evening like I read was common for newborns. Sure, she cried, she fussed, she wouldn’t settle sometimes, but in hind sight, she was pretty easy.

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

Around 4 months she got difficult, and I think so far, that has been my least favorite time of raising a baby. But we got through it, and life resumes.

But let me tell you a little something about being a mom (first time mom). It’s weird. For me, anyway. Maybe it was peaches and roses for you from day 1. That’s cool. It wasn’t really that way for me. And in talking with other awesome mommies, it wasn’t really that way for some of them, too.

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

I’m part of a really great mommy group. We all found each other through our town’s prenatal yoga program offered at Parks and Rec. We would chat before, during, and a bit after class, and a wonderful friendship blossomed between us all. We would commiserate about our bulging bellies, our painful hips, and our constant search for a bathroom as our due dates approached. We kept in touch after the classes ended, and started to get together after the babies were born, who are all very close in age. And it has been an amazing resource to have these ladies in my life. To be able to talk freely, and openly about the struggles and difficulties of being a first time mom, without fear of judgement, has been nothing short of a miracle.

I can tell them that breastfeeding my baby was NOT natural or easy for me. I can tell them that at times, I absolutely hated something that the world portrays as a beautiful, natural, amazing experience. It WASN’T for me. Not at first. And sometimes, not even today. But being able to vent about my hardships with nursing is probably something that helped me stick with it. And now it’s easier, it’s enjoyable, and I’m happy about it.

There is something shameful about feeling anything other than elation, joy, and absolute confidence in being a mom. But lots of mommies feel scared, overwhelmed, stressed, and even regretful when they become moms. It’s a huge change. Yet, nobody talks about that side of motherhood. Everything is all, “oh baby snuggles are just the best” “There’s nothing better than the smell of a newborn” “Your heart will just melt the first time you see your baby” “You’ll never be the same woman, you’ll be better because of your baby”

Yes, that’s all true. That’s all good. That’s the positive side of becoming a mommy. But what about the sleepless nights? What about the pressure of figuring out how to care for another human who is 100% completely dependent on you not fucking it all up? What about the goddam spit up covering every single piece of clothing, bedding, and furniture surface you own!?!

That’s what I want to talk about. How it’s hard. How you feel like you aren’t you anymore. How, at 3 in the morning, when you’re feeding baby (from bottle or boob), and changing yet ANOTHER diaper because the kid just shit like Mount Rushmore, you just feel like a robot; a milk machine if you’re nursing. Feed, change, get baby to sleep. Repeat.

I have to take pause to mention that the very first person I turn to when I am having a tough day is my amazing sister. She is my rock. My stability. And with 2 kids age 4 and almost 2 years old, she is my best resource because she has been there, she has done that, twice. Love you Melis!

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

But back to these babies. I think women have this tremendous amount of pressure to just take mommyhood in stride. To do it. To love it. To be all that and a bag of chips. And that’s the reason for my post today. I want to let other mommies know that if you feel like you are sad, or anxious, or overwhelmed… that’s OK! It’s okay to not love the hard stuff. It’s okay to miss your old life. It’s okay to cry because you’re tired and you just don’t know how you are going to get out of bed and survive the day on 3 hours of sleep. Spoiler alert: you will, somehow!

In the beginning, I had moments where I felt like a hollow mold of my former self. Like everything that made me ME was sucked out. I no longer slept. I no longer had time to read a book for more than 10 minutes. I no longer had the energy to sew a button on my hubby’s pants, let alone make a quilt or any other fun project. I was different. Everything that made up who I was as an individual was gone. And that was weird. I was this new person, and I wasn’t quite sure what made me ME anymore.

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

As the months have (quickly) ticked by, and as Nora grows, I have realized that this new version of me is different, but it’s actually really amazing. First: things slowly start returning to “normal” and I put “normal” in quotation marks because obviously, things will never be the same after you have a kid. But now? I can spend an hour sewing when Nora naps. I can read at 8pm before bed because Nora is usually asleep by 7:30 (usually). I can sleep for more than an hour at a time at night! OH SLEEP. I HAVE MISSED YOU SO. I never knew how much I loved to sleep until it was taken away from me. ;)

And all those hollow places I felt deep inside of me have started to fill up with things that make up every day life. Some of these things are familiar, like sitting on the couch with Greg and watching TV on Sunday afternoon. And some of these hollow spaces are filling up with something totally new. Like making batches of food for Nora (OH how she loves her peas and green beans!), washing her cloth diapers every few days and then stuffing them, and jiggling and squeezing Sophie the giraffe 1000 times because it makes Nora giggle. And something else is filling my hollow spaces. A love I never knew existed for a tiny human being that I didn’t quite know how to love at first.

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

on mommyhood the good the bad the ugly

I didn’t think I’d write such a cliche sentence about how I feel about being a mom today. Seeing people write crap like that when their baby was 2 weeks old made me kind of want to vomit all over my phone while I scrolled through my news feed. But hey, everyone is different, and everyone handles and reacts to things differently, so like I said at the beginning of this post. If it was all peaches and roses for you from day 1, I’m so happy for you! If it wasn’t, hang in there, because it has slowly gotten better for me, and I think you’ll get there, too.

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Apr
21
2013

I know I have not blogged in a long long time, but today I had to share some very exciting news. We have a little secret we’ve been keeping for the last 14 weeks :)

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We’re expecting a baby this fall, and we couldn’t be more excited for his or her arrival!! More pics and updates to come along the way as we await the arrival of our sweet baby Cuc in October! :)

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Aug
06
2012

A couple of weeks ago, my niece, Julia, turned 1!! I can’t believe how quick their first year flies by. I feel like it was just a few weeks ago that I was visiting them at the hospital on the day she was born, and visiting them at home in her first few weeks of life.

I was looking forward to her birthday party like a giddy little kid on Christmas eve! And how can you not with a Pizza Truck with all you can eat gelato!? As always with the Cucinelli’s and parties (especially ones at the beach house), there was an abundance of great food, and even better desserts! It was a huge, beautifully decorated party, and I think everyone had a really great time! I know I did. Check out this little cuttie-pie and all of the fun she had at her butterfly-themed first birthday party. She even had her own cake to smash and eat, which she did a wonderful job on!

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

These gorgeous cupcakes and her special cake topper were made by the super talented ladies over at Sugar Bakery

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography

Julias First Birthday Party | CT Childrens Photography
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Sep
23
2011

Here is a super quick sneak peek of the little Miss baby O, the adorable newborn I had the privilege to photograph a couple of weeks ago! So much more from her session to come, just wait til you see how cute she is :)

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Aug
11
2011

3 weeks ago Greg got an early morning call from his mom. This completely out of the ordinary call was, on this particular morning, very much anticipated, however. His brother’s wife was 6 days past her due date, and we were all eagerly anticipating the arrival of the families first grandchild! At 6:30 am on July 20th, little Julia Grace entered the world, and all of us instantly fell in love. Over the last few weeks I’ve been capturing pictures of her, hoping to preserve this precious time in all of our lives. Newborns grow and change so rapidly, and before you know it, they are crawling, walking, talking, and driving a car!

I’m so proud to introduce to you, my dear blog readers, my very beautiful niece, Julia Grace. From the moment I laid eyes on her, I fell in love, and I’m sure you can understand why… <3

** There is nothing like a little baby sleeping peacefully in your arms <3 I just love her so much!! The proud Grandparents:

So many more pics of Julia to come, so be prepared to be overloaded with adorableness!! <3

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Jun
21
2011

A couple of weeks ago, I spent a Monday afternoon with possibly the *cutest* little baby girl in the whoooole wide world. She has these amazingly beautiful blue eyes, and the sweetest smile that will surely melt your heart. And her parents? They were filled to the brim with warmth, generosity, and love. I had such a blast hanging out with them for the evening and capturing pictures of their little family. At 6 months, these moments are fleeting, and I love being able to capture such special memories for my families!

As soon as I got to their house, I was greeted by little Indy and her dad and they offered me mint water, and cookies (Back to Nature Fudge Mint… one of my *favorites*!)… and I knew it was going to be a great session! We started in their beautiful backyard, which was full in bloom with some gorgeous flowers, and eventually made our way down to the water. It was a warm beautiful day, with some pretty awesome light.

Sam, Jared and Indy, thanks for letting me spend the evening with you guys, I had so much fun! I hope you enjoy the pics!!

Part way through our shoot, Indy fell asleep, so we continued as she napped peacefully in mom and dad’s arms…

Eventually, she woke back up and was ready for more pics!

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Jun
08
2011

Here’s a little sneak peek of the super sweet family I had the privilege of photographing Monday evening, hanging out near their home in Milford, CT. Enjoy, and stay tuned for the full post with lots more photos of this beautiful family to come soon!!!

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May
14
2011

A couple of weekends ago I spent the afternoon with the cutest family in the whole world! I’ve known Ary for about 4 years (we work together at Yale), and in that time I have seen him marry, and now start a family. I was incredibly honored to photograph them and their little man at Elizabeth Park in Hartford, as this was where they were married 3 years ago! I thought it beautiful that these pictures, the documentation of their growing life, were taken in the place that they *started* their life together.

The park is beautiful!! Tulips were blooming everywhere and we made our way through the park grounds. In one section there is a huge rose garden, though the roses haven’t bloomed yet. I’m dying to go back and photograph there when they do, so if anyone is thinking of a session this summer, now is the time to lock in a date for the amazing roses at Elizabeth Park!

Ary and Bina, thanks for a wonderful afternoon! I hope you love the photos as much as I do!!

They brought their dog, Odie, along so we had to catch a few with him! He is the cutest in the world. I’m not a big dog person (was petrified when I was little) but I LOVE boxers. I think they are adorable when they are puppies, and just beautiful when they are full grown. Just look at that face!

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May
03
2011

Here is a quick sneak peek of the awesome family session I had this past weekend at Elizabeth Park! Ary, Bina and Aitan, thank you for spending the afternoon with me and being so much fun! I’m so excited to show you guys ALL of the pics, but until then, I hope you enjoy this little sneak peek!

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Jan
17
2011

That’s pronounced a-n-t. Like those little black things that crawl all over your picnic blanket. See, I grew up in New York, where our a’s are hard and we laugh at people who pronounce it correctly. Cause that’s just how we roll…

Anyway, today is my nephew’s 1st birthday. 1 year ago today, in the wee hours of the morning I saw a miracle occur. After 30 hours of labor, the little guy *finally* made his appearance. Yes indeed, it was a true miracle that my sister didn’t murder someone… if I were in labor for 30 hours, I think I would have!

Yesterday we had a great big party for the little man of the hour. It was hands down the most fancy 1 year old birthday party I’ve ever attended, complete with homemade gourmet mac n cheese, red velvet cupcakes and carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. Oh, it was all so delectable, delightful, it was flat out delicious!!  I think he truly had a great time, he danced to mickey mouse songs (a true disney fan in the making!) he ate carrot cake, he opened his presents, and he didn’t cry once, except when my sister tried to put his pointy birthday hat on.  He really doesn’t like that.  All in all, it was a wonderful party, with the best friends and family anyone could ask for.

This sweet adorable little one is my cousin’s daughter, Aly.  I looove love love her!  She came right up to my camera and stood in front of me and let me take a bagillion pictures of her, and she just smiled and posed.  And she’s only a little over a year old!  What a cutie.  More pics of her below…

My brother and his new fiance!  Yey.  I can’t wait for them to get married.  I’ll be one of their photographers/bridesmaids, as they are having probably the most laid back and eclectic weddings I’ll ever witness!  I can’t wait.  I just hope my bro smiles for the camera (no I mean, really smiles, not like that below… :shudder: )

This morning, as I laid in bed and thought of my nephew, I looked back on my year filling the role of “aunt.”  It has been one of the best years of my short life.  My nephew is the first grandchild of the family, and I realllllly hope that someone *cough cough* has more kids soon because I love being the cool fun auntie that always brings fun toys and little presents.  This little guy (and all subsequent nieces and nephews) will be sooo spoiled and so loved, I don’t know if they will be able to handle it all!!

Happy Birthday, little cutie.  <3

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